Delusions | TBN 8-23-21

Bookmaking log: finalized 80,457 words of UBP, 166,525 remaining | TBN +513 words

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for the first time since I started dabbling with the cannabis at age 19, I had an edible experience that was actually an experience. I popped 2 yesterday at I don’t even know what time, and then eventually i fell asleep, and then at around 2:22 in the morning I woke up so high I couldn’t stand for more than a couple minutes. It was incredible. Went right the fuck back to sleep. I feel like a new man. Physically I feel a little tired, but that’s only because I’m working on old material still

CYKA I hate working on old material

but it is necessary. if you haven’t seen the homepage, I have taken the ct off of the Upcoming list. This is because – and I’m going to be as transparent and specific as I can here; if crimes were committed, they’re about to be exposed – the wind continues to blow. Plans change, folks. I only had a couple thousand words written for ct – it was going to be called Conspiracy Theory and involve any number of conspirators, but alas, that old blowin’ old. Fear not, noted reader, The Bookmaker has plenty planned after UBP is done being finalized. Don’t you worry for even a second. Those plans don’t involve W-2222 whatsoever, but still don’t worry. I’m sure I’ll get back there eventually.

As for the now, I’m cruising through UBP. Really killing it. I’m not changing a whole lot, only what really needs it – UBP is a book I made sober, it is dedicated to Stephen King and Stephen King is sober so I’m going to let as much of the writing that The sober Bookmaker did remain – and I don’t expect to take more than, I don’t know… I’ll probably have it done within a week from today. Might be longer, I don’t know. It’s a 700-page book, it’s the longest thing I’ve ever written, and if I want to take an extra couple days making sure it’s totally finalized then I will.

Imma be straight, right now there are zero delusions in my head promising me that as soon as I finish UBP my success is going to take off and my pockets are going to fill, and I like that. For the past however long – actually… ever since I started planning Conspiracy Theory… hmmm… weird – I’ve been sort of convinced that finishing The Great Revamp would unlock some huge spiritual thing for me and I would suddenly get discovered. But right now? Nah. None of that. I just want to finish so I can continue to explore the continuity I’ve set up, and that’s all I’ll say about my plans for when the last of my unfinished books is finished.

so uh… i don’t know if there’s much more to say from me today. rained like crazy yesterday, but the sun came out. sun always comes out eventually.

Since you’re there, noted reader, thank you for being there. From this day on, we move forever forward~

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